Faith in God

I just wanted to take a few minutes to express how grateful I am for my friends and God. I recently read a post on my friends facebook page, that I instantly shared because it touched my heart so much.

The quote read, "Faith in God includes Faith in his timing." - Neal A Maxwell

As I thought about this quote, I instantly thought about it in terms of my infertility struggles. God Loves each of us, myself included, and only wants what is best for us in our lives. (Not to say bad things don't happen, because they do, but not because of God.) But in terms of my infertility, which is something that is my body, I trust that my Heavenly Father loves me and will work miracles when the timing is right. I just need to continue to have faith and trust that it is not the right timing in my life, for whatever reason. This faith has helped bring peace and comfort to my heart. Although I still struggle with wanting to be a mommy and have my days of sorrow for that, I have found that trusting in my Heavenly Father brings peace and calm into my life, and the hard days are fewer and farther between when I keep my faith in God strong and don't let it waiver.

I have decided in the meantime, while I wait for God's timing for my to have children, that I will continue in my faith because it truly helps me continue trying, and not giving up in despair. My husband and I have also made educational and career goals, personal goals, health goals and relationship goals to help each of us grow and learn, to develop our talents and knowledge. So when the blessed day arrives that we can finally be called parents, we will be the best mommy and daddy we possibly can be. We will be the most prepared for the challenges that come with sleepless nights, sick kids, disciplining and soothing broken wounds and hearts. We know it will not make it perfect, but it will make it easier. We want to do everything we can now, before children, to prepare for when we will get to be called mommy and daddy!

I am grateful for my loving and supportive husband through all of this. I am grateful for my faith, it has helped me so much in my life as I have waited for any trial or challenge in my life to pass. Just most don't last 5+ years! But I still have faith and trust in His love and watchful care. I know that God is mindful of me, loves me, and only wants what is best for me. I believe there is a purpose to this trial, I just don't understand it quite yet. Hopefully in the future I will! In the meantime, I am grateful for the atoning blood of my Savior which allows me to turn to Him and get healing from my wounds. His atoning sacrifice allows us to turn to the one person who can truly say in all circumstances and situations, "I know what you are going through. Let me help!" The Savior stands at the door to our hearts, with no door handle on him side, knocking, and waiting for us to open the door and let Him into our hearts and lives. I know that when we all do this, miracles will happen. One of the miracles I have seen from this, is the patience to wait for this trial to pass and having faith in His timing. I know this would all be so much more difficult if I did not let my Savior into my life and heart, to heal and calm my heart. Without His gift of patience, I probably would have gone crazy by now and given up. I know I am who I am today because of my faith in God, His son, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost that brings peace and calm amid challenges and trials.

I am so grateful for my faith and for the miracles I see in my life everyday. If you have any questions about my faith or anything you have read, leave a comment. I will answer any questions. Hopefully everyone can find the peace and comfort that I have found through my faith in God, which most certainly includes faith in His timing.